you are coming down with me, hand in unlovable hand.

Gosh! I just can't get enough of Mumford and Sons as of now! I've been listening to it for days now. I also am loving The Mountain Goats. MG is an old band that I forgot about though and I just picked back up again. But music is filling me up full lately. My facebook is not working either, and its just my facebook. Like, its not my internet obviously because I'm on here and Grooveshark, so thats weird.

Today was decent. I realized how attracted I actually was to a certain someone, hah. Do you ever have that happen to you? Like all of the sudden you're talking to somebody or walking with them and then it just suddenly hits you. My thought when this happened was "Holy shit, now thats what I was waiting for." When this happens with somebody new, it makes me feel so alive. Then reality kicks me in the ass and is like "Hey there, he has a girfriend. Don't want to ruin that, huh?" I'm never and not ever going to be mean enought to take someone away from someone else unless its like extreme circumstances. I really don't know what the situation would have to be to do that though. HAH, so then you start feeling like a fool all over again, except this time I kind of didn't. Because I felt like something was actually going to happen someday. With time. That reality is just telling me I'm not ready for that yet. At least I think thats what it is. I have hope, I always do no matter how bad it might hurt me later. So that feeling made me kindof start believing in love again?

I'm eating McDonalds right now. I like it but I feel gross. I wonder if theres a disorder where you think your teeth are rotting out of your head constantely. Or you think you're going to get a cavity with like everything you eat. If there is a phobia like that, I definately have it. Everytime I drink pop or like go out to eat and eat something bad, my teeth feel like they're rotting. Like, it feels like they're slowly decaying and theres nothing I can do about it. And I think I brush my teeth a little too much when I'm at home. And when I'm somewhere else, I sneak in a few brushes when I'm "going to the bathroom". This is all pretty pathetic, but its the truth. After you've had braces for days on end, its hard not to think like that. If this isn't the case, I must be freaking insane.