I've got your letter, you've got my song

Heres the "low down on my life" :

1. I am realizing how hard growing up actually is. I don't like it but I'm going to try to push forward and get through highschool so I can live up to my potential in college.


2. I have had so much drama in just this week I've literally thought about throwing myself down a flight of stairs multiple times. I hate bitch problems and girls. Call me butch, but I love boys SO much more.


3. I lost a huge check. I'm so pissed at myself. My dad blames it on me not going to church and not being "strong in my faith". I blame it on me being a dumbass and not having a purse with a zipper on it.


4. I also managed to loose my glasses, hence why I'm so pissy this week, I CAN'T SEE A DAMN THING. Not cool, ever.


5. I spit on someone today. I've never felt so alive and nasty in my life.


6. LAST THING TO LOOSE THIS WEEK HOPEFULLY, one of my degus is on the loose. Shes either dead or running around outside somewhere. So if anybody wants a cute little critter, let me know. I might just give the remaining one to the library if Tilly doesn't come back, she is so sad alone.

I'm also falling for some weird ass with an awesome vibe and smile. I am still considering just doing crap and not getting into a relationship though. I run, I hide and I run some more, again.

Being vague and honest are my two best qualities as of now.

I dyed my hair again, not because I got bored, because I actually hated having blonde hair. Oh yeah, and to piss my mom off. I love her to pieces but I don't like my blonde hair.

My social life is STILL stressing me out and giving me chin zits, not cool.